8.4.20

2020: The First Quarter Review

I had these big intentions to really focus and give attention to my blog this year. 4 posts into January and then those intentions seem to have been forgotten. 

I wrote quarterly reviews last year and really enjoy looking over them now, and wanted to continue it this year also.

It's been an odd 3 months though hasn't it due to the Coronvavirus, and it's not really something I want to focus on or to have as the subject of these posts at least. Especially as I think there are other things, especially these last 3 months, that I can look back on.

I think over the last couple of years I've been a lot more private with my life. When I looked back on old blog posts and Instagram posts from 2 or 3 years ago I didn't really do "privacy" properly. I guess I just had that thing that I'm open and honest and never really respected that actually, it's ok to keep things to yourself.
It's funny because I was so comfortable with oversharing certain aspects but now, when I think about it, I used to really struggle sharing when I visited the TT...often leaving it months until I shared posts because I preferred to keep it to myself and to not share my feelings around it because it was so special and important to me. Even now I have posts from last year that I was supposed to write, but I wanted to soak them in for as long as I could and not involve anyone else in that.

I suppose when I was dating initially (on dating sites, actually dating etc) I thought I was almost being helpful to other single women, and I suppose I was really and I shouldn't go back on that or take any of that away from myself because it's good to feel supportive and to feel like my openness helped others, which I know that it did.
But now I'm in a place where actually I respect that keeping that part of my life to myself is ok too.
Despite meeting someone who I want to brag about and show off and just feel so proud to have in my life, it's also quite nice to keep that to myself and to only share small parts of that (which actually tends to be when I've had a few drinks and take to Facebook...next day regrets...ffs).

When I look back on the last 3 months I do feel really happy. Not only because of what I mentioned above but because of the things I've done...before lockdown...obviously. But trips out with the boys, just for simple walks or for our family treat when they have filled their marble jar due to good behaviour or chores around the house.

I finally achieved my first night out in Norwich...seriously 34 and not having a proper night out in Norwich is a bit shameful really. Annoyingly it was cut short due to trains being off and needing to get a replacement bus but still...it was a night I would love to relive and can't wait to once lockdown is over and we are free again.

A friendship that was really important to me and a big part of my life in 2014/2015 was rekindled which was lovely and we had a lovely afternoon and evening ending in us going to the Boys Are Back concert which was amazing. Before going I was very much "I'm not going to scream, I'll be annoyed if grown, adult women around me are"...and at the end of the concert had a sore throat from all the singing and "woo-ing".

And lastly, the biggest thing for me for this quarter of 2020 is a new job role! I absolutely love the company I work for, I am incredibly passionate about working for them and last year was a big step for me with my career and for whatever reason it didn't pan out how I wanted and for a while I felt a little lost and like I wasn't getting the fulfilment I needed or wanted from my job. But then a new opportunity came up which I applied for and got which made me sooo happy!
Unfortunately I've not been able to get stuck in to it due to the current situation but I can't wait until all this is over and I am able to.


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