"You want the moon?"

One of my favourite movie quotes is the above from George Bailey in 'It's a Wonderful Life'. I rarely like romance films but this one got me so much that I have made two prints of the quote for my bedroom wall and have a moon with a lasso around it tattooed on me.

When you're on dating sites you get asked a lot what you're looking for. I worked out a while ago that it doesn't matter what you say, no one is interested.

I think when you're single for so long, even if that is broken up by a year long relationship which ends with total disrespect despite...and I can say this with full confidence, me being an amazing girlfriend, you do start to question where YOU are or have been going wrong.

Do you want the impossible? Are you expecting too much?

I've always thought I was quite laid back. I've never expected a relationship status change on date 2, a diamond on date 3 and a pregnancy test on date 4.
In fact marriage and children have never been anything I've expected or made anyone feel pressure about.

I want to go into 2020 with some kind of clear vision I guess. (lol at a 2020 vision pun I won't make).

I'm at the point where I want a relationship, but I don't want the pointless ego boosting swiping on Tinder and Bumble. The awkward first messages, the "I can just come to yours" instead of an actual first date.

George, I don't want the moon.

I want someone who is proud of me, proud to be with me. Proud to show me off, as I would be of them.
Someone who wants to shout to the world "Look at her!"

I want someone who checks in on me during the day. Not because they don't trust me, but to see how I am. Or just to send a message with a simple heart on it, to let me know I was on their mind.

I want someone who see's the good in me. Who can see what I have to give and will let me give it.

I want someone who will let me love them hard (but not to a "Joe Goldberg" level)

I want someone who will nap with me...or will let me nap on them...or who will nap on me. Either way...naps are important.

I want someone who is willing to see and understand everything about me. About who I am.

I want someone who will look for me in a crowded room.

I want someone who wants to spend as much time as possible with me.

I want someone who wants to make memories with me. However small and simple they are.

I want someone who let's me be me, but accepts that when I am yours I am YOURS and that I am fiercely loyal.

I want someone who will laugh with me...or at me.

I want someone who will look at me with love, admiration and pride.

I want someone who can accept my flaws and not see past them, but can work with me on them.

I want someone to hold me accountable.

I want someone who, when they hold me in their arms, feels like the right fit. Where nothing feels out of place or wrong or awkward.

I want to be someones priority. I've never been that, not even when I was married.

I want someone to be part of a team with, a team where we can make each other happy.

I want someone to make me feel special. Someone who I can make feel special.

I just want someone to just love me. No matter what. 

Quote from 'The Fault in Our Stars'.